How do I stay positive?
Honestly, there's times where I don't. I get down, I panic about money tests, doctors, family failure and sexual inadequacy (of other people...tragic)
But I don't have time anymore to feel down, be sad be sorry worry or try generally to somehow make other peoples lives better over my own.
I've got two kids. They need me. I am basically one handed and raising two kids by myself, I am currently unemployed and living off of my savings account and WCB stipend. I am constantly in pain and cannot even play guitar anymore let alone climb, trail ride or wake board. And kiss the ski hill goodbye this winter.
I have a TON of crap to be down about.
But then I remember those two kids. I remember how I grew up, I think of the example I need to set for my girls and the priorities and ethic (not to mention morals) I need to instill into them.
Being down and being unhappy is a choice. I know how bad I had it growing up in a rough family on welfare. I know even at that time there were kids with even less than me.
I think of all this crap in my life and all of the crap I've gone through and how much crap I've still gotta go through. And I know I have to teach my kids to smile through it all.
Life is a hell of a ride, you really just have to find a way to enjoy it, because it really isn't all that bad and if you pay really really close attention you'll find that the hard parts are few and far between and they're pre-cursors for better things.
3 years ago I was sitting in a hospital bed in Oslo Norway wondering if the doctor was going to come in and tell me they'd have to cut my arm off of not. Today I sit here telling you no matter how bad it seems it really could always be worse and that the truth is....
Is that it's really better than it seems when you figure it all out