I lost a friend today. We both come from rough backgrounds, share suicidal thoughts/ideation and have made attempts. Over the past few weeks and earlier in the day, she expressed wishes to end her life and asked me to examine bridges and rooftops with her as prospective locations for jumping. Then, she asked me to walk with her to a bridge, and I agreed as I thought it would be safer than if she went alone. I asked her if she was simply going to inspect the bridge or if she was intending to jump, and she issued me a playful shrug.
After a bit, I made the decision to contact police, dialing 911 and explaining to the operator the situation. They came and spoke with her through her partner who was translating (my (former) friend is mute) and after a short dialogue decided not to take her in. She then sent me rude messages on Discord, which was our main platform for communication, saying that I'm a '$&!# human being' and deserving of 10,000 times the pain I caused her.
I'm fine with my choice to speak to the police authorities on a logical and rational level, but this hurts deeply on an emotional one.