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IRON AND THE SOULby Henry RollinsI believe that the definition of definition is reinvention. To not be like your parents. To not be like your friends. To be yourself.Completely.When I was young I had no sense of myself. All I was, was a product of all the fear and humiliation I suffered. Fear of my parents. The humiliation of teachers calling me "garbage can" and telling me I'd be mowing lawns for a living. And the very real terror of my fellow students. I was threatened and beaten up for the color of my skin and my size. I was skinny and clumsy, and when others would tease me I didn't run home crying, wondering why.I knew all too well. I was there to be antagonized. In sports I was laughed at. A spaz. I was pretty good at boxing but only because the rage that filled my every waking moment made me wild and unpredictable. I fought with some strange fury. The other boys thought I was crazy.I hated myself all the time.As stupid at it seems now, I wanted to talk like them, dress like them, carry myself with the ease of knowing that I wasn't going to get pounded in the hallway between classes. Years passed and I learned to keep it all inside. I only talked to a few boys in my grade. Other losers. Some of them are to this day the greatest people I have ever known. Hang out with a guy who has had his head flushed down a toilet a few times, treat him with respect, and you'll find a faithful friend forever. But even with friends, school sucked. Teachers gave me hard time.I didn't think much of them either.Then came Mr. Pepperman, my advisor. He was a powerfully built Vietnam veteran, and he was scary. No one ever talked out of turn in his class. Once one kid did and Mr. P. lifted him off the ground and pinned him to the black board. Mr. P. could see that I was in bad shape, and one Friday in October he asked me if I had ever worked out with weights. I told him no.He told me that I was going to take some of the money that I had saved and buy a hundred pound set of weights at Sears. As I left his office, I started to think of things I would say to him on Monday when he asked about the weights that I was not going to buy. Still, it made me feel special. My father never really got that close to caring. On Saturday I bought the weights, but I couldn't even drag them to my mom's car. An attendant laughed at me as he put them on a dolly.Monday came and I was called into Mr. P.'s office after school. He said that he was going to show me how to work out. He was going to put me on a program and start hitting me in the solar plexus in the hallway when I wasn't looking. When I could take the punch we would know that we were getting somewhere. At no time was I to look at myself in the mirror or tell anyone at school what I was doing. In the gym he showed me ten basic exercises. I paid more attention than I ever did in any of my classes. I didn't want to blow it. I went home that night and started right in.Weeks passed, and every once in a while Mr. P. would give me a shot and drop me in the hallway, sending my books flying. The other students didn't know what to think. More weeks passed, and I was steadily adding new weights to the bar. I could sense the power inside my body growing. I could feel it.Right before Christmas break I was walking to class, and from out of nowhere Mr. Pepperman appeared and gave me a shot in the chest. I laughed and kept going. He said I could look at myself now. I got home and ran to the bathroom and pulled off my shirt. I saw a body, not just the shell that housed my stomach and my heart. My biceps bulged. My chest had definition. I felt strong. It was the first time I can remember having a sense of myself. I had done something and no one could ever take it away.You couldn't say s--t to me.It took me years to fully appreciate the value of the lessons I have learned from the Iron. I used to think that it was my adversary, that I was trying to lift that which does not want to be lifted. I was wrong. When the Iron doesn't want to come off the mat, it's the kindest thing it can do for you. If it flew up and went through the ceiling, it wouldn't teach you anything. That's the way the Iron talks to you. It tells you that the material you work with is that which you will come to resemble.That which you work against will always work against you.It wasn't until my late twenties that I learned that by working out I had given myself a great gift. I learned that nothing good comes without work and a certain amount of pain. When I finish a set that leaves me shaking, I know more about myself. When something gets bad, I know it can't be as bad as that workout.I used to fight the pain, but recently this became clear to me: pain is not my enemy; it is my call to greatness. But when dealing with the Iron, one must be careful to interpret the pain correctly. Most injuries involving the Iron come from ego. I once spent a few weeks lifting weight that my body wasn't ready for and spent a few months not picking up anything heavier than a fork. Try to lift what you're not prepared to and the Iron will teach you a little lesson in restraint and self-control.I have never met a truly strong person who didn't have self-respect. I think a lot of inwardly and outwardly directed contempt passes itself off as self-respect: the idea of raising yourself by stepping on someone's shoulders instead of doing it yourself. When I see guys working out for cosmetic reasons, I see vanity exposing them in the worst way, as cartoon characters, billboards for imbalance and insecurity. Strength reveals itself through character. It is the difference between bouncers who get off strong-arming people and Mr.Pepperman.Muscle mass does not always equal strength. Strength is kindness and sensitivity. Strength is understanding that your power is both physical and emotional. That it comes from the body and the mind. And the heart.Yukio Mishima said that he could not entertain the idea of romance if he was not strong. Romance is such a strong and overwhelming passion, a weakened body cannot sustain it for long. I have some of my most romantic thoughts when I am with the Iron. Once I was in love with a woman. I thought about her the most when the pain from a workout was racing through my body.Everything in me wanted her. So much so that sex was only a fraction of my total desire. It was the single most intense love I have ever felt, but she lived far away and I didn't see her very often. Working out was a healthy way of dealing with the loneliness. To this day, when I work out I usually listen to ballads.I prefer to work out alone.It enables me to concentrate on the lessons that the Iron has for me. Learning about what you're made of is always time well spent, and I have found no better teacher. The Iron had taught me how to live. Life is capable of driving you out of your mind. The way it all comes down these days, it's some kind of miracle if you're not insane. People have become separated from their bodies. They are no longer whole.I see them move from their offices to their cars and on to their suburban homes. They stress out constantly, they lose sleep, they eat badly. And they behave badly. Their egos run wild; they become motivated by that which will eventually give them a massive stroke. They need the Iron Mind.Through the years, I have combined meditation, action, and the Iron into a single strength. I believe that when the body is strong, the mind thinks strong thoughts. Time spent away from the Iron makes my mind degenerate. I wallow in a thick depression. My body shuts down my mind.The Iron is the best antidepressant I have ever found. There is no better way to fight weakness than with strength. Once the mind and body have been awakened to their true potential, it's impossible to turn back.The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get told that you're a god or a total bastard. The Iron will always kick you the real deal. The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver. Always there like a beacon in the pitch black. I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds.
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So is Snow's sword special or is he somehow or why did that work vs the white baddy?
Maybe Valyrian steel works like dragon glass?
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Chappie 8/10
Ex Machina 6/10
Both deal with AI, although with vastly different approaches, and while I enjoyed Ex Machina, I found Chappie to be fantastic. I thought Chappie's awakening was very emotional, and actually found the movie unexpectedly emotional. Didn't think Die Antwoord ruined the movie, either.
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Dragon Blade - 3/10
Cusack's whispering his way through the movie is awful enough, but Adrien Brody's performance is beyond laughable. Do Chinese audiences not recognize terrible acting if it's in another language? This movie is inexcusable.
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The Dead Lands - 8.5/10
I was a huge fan of Apocalypto, and this is similar, but different. I really, really enjoyed it.
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Last Knights - 3/10. I'd give it a 5, but throughout the entire movie I couldn't get over the stupid sword design. No cross guard? GTFO.
The story was pretty terrible as well.
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You know GlassJaw, in a better world we would be great friends instead of anons on CDC.
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God I miss working out. It is incredibly depressing not being able to work out when you want to. Haven't been to the gym steady since summer due to ridiculous health issues. Still waiting for a surgery in two months and then recovery. If I don't end up with a colostomy bag, hopefully I can get back to it by July.
Body squats have been my only friend for months
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I don't know why I like this song, I just do.
Damn. I really like it too. Thanks!
Just listened to the entire album, and it is great! Thanks again.
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Agreed. PM me! Want to ask you something
Why don't you just PM the question?
It's like when my friend texts me and says "call me".
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ysoMe9SRWg&list=PLdoI7wob5hyRxe0t3xIM_QeTMl87VOXHk&index=3
I can't wait to hear more production by Bill Cosmiq, this and Blade of the Ronin make me a fan.
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Wow is Exodus: Gods and Kings is awful. I'm not even half way through and it's just a cringe fest. From the casting, to the acting, to the dialogue, just atrocious.
Moses is a modern day, rationality professing atheist, lol. Who came up with this crap? Didn't realize this was directed by Ridley Scott. How awful.
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I'd agree, but when you can feel the girlfriend's death stare on the back of your head, it becomes less comfortable.
Why is your girlfriend sitting behind you?
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Do you mean squat rack or cage or an actual squat machine?
Rack. I typed machine? WTF is wrong with me. I'm a bigger tool than I thought. I am disappoint.
First time I called it squat machine I swear. I don't use the smith machine, all free weights baby.
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Went to a different gym location yesterday. I start with squats. Squat machine is taken. Four guys doing... shoulder shrugs. OK fine, they're idiots, but I'll wait and deadlift first. Finally they're done shrugging in the only squat machine in the gym, I'm excited to squat.. and I tweak my neck grabbing the bar for my first warm up set. F@#$. Didn't squat. Felt so incomplete.
I can't believe I curled the barbell at the squat machine at one time. I was such a tool.
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I would take any "internet research" about working out with a grain of salt. The industry is notorious for steroid users claiming to be natural. They sell their products, people subscribe to their youtube, and then they get busted.
The only two types of people (who aren't using steroids) who gain muscle while losing weight are the obese and newbs.
I can't comment on your specifically, as I do not know anything about your current composition and your goals. However, for me the only time I put on muscle is during a bulk. I will do a slow bulk of 1 lbs every 2 weeks. I will wait until I put on 15lbs or so and then cut 10 lbs equally slow. It's a slow process but I end up with 5 lbs of lean muscle. I'm only 5'8'' so it looks like a significant amount of muscle on my frame, and I get lots of comments on it. Not that I work out for comments, but it affirms that I'm making gains.
After 15+ years of working out 5 lbs is a huge gain. Even then this bulk/cut cycle only works once every 2 years or so...yes working out is not a quick process.
I'm guessing you are a newb and you also want to lose some weight. In which, case I wouldn't worry too much about diet or macros. I'd just hit the weights consistently. Yes, you will lose weight and gain lots of muscle for the first 2 years or so. You'll hit a wall. Then begin to worry about your macros, cutting, etc...
That's actually my second thought. Newb gains are easy. I've been working out since last July, but missed days, weeks, and months sometimes. And I was doing bro-splits. No leg days, no deadlifts, no record tracking, but cardio! It was pathetic and a colossal waste of time. Only been working on my strength since HK laid it out plain for my dull brain to comprehend. Great results, some lifts are up by 70lb already and improving every single workout. It's a thrill, combined with tracking my progress for the first time.
Anyway, yes I'm a newb and probably just riding that initial spurt. And losing the fat doesn't hurt either. Still, I could probably see more gainz if I ate more, eh? ...
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Eat more. Real food.
You are not building muscle on a calorie deficit unless you are a new lifter or obese and even that is minimal.
A 9 pound loss over 3 weeks is dumb unless you have a ton of weight to lose.
Google Alan Aragon for nutrition advice.
Supplements are a waste of money for the most part.
Join bodybuilding.com forums and ask there.
That's really the crux of my post - I don't feel hungry and so don't eat. I eat to full and anything after that I have to force down (I have a very hard time doing that). Is it really just about forcing oneself to eat past full until reaching the caloric requirement?
I was 185 6 weeks ago, after vacation and a week of munching on cookies and ice cream, I was 195, now I am back to 186 or so. At 5'10" I'm not fat, I'm not even chubby. I just have little handles on the sides. I realize I won't build muscle with a caloric deficit, however am I wrong in thinking that I'm probably not losing muscle mass as I'm losing this weight? Okay, maybe a little muscle mass. As I'm increasing my lifts and meeting my protein needs, are my muscles not at least at a standstill?
By the way, what do you mean by real food? I have a pretty good breakfast and lunch (two smaller lunches), it's really after my workout that I won't feel like eating a whole lot. Last two days I've had a slice of pizza each day for dinner, and it was enough. Sure, I'll have a glass of milk or two after or some other snack, but after dinner I'm usually only at about 1600 cal. Sometimes less if I miss a lunch.
Anyway, I'm off to google Alan Aragon! Thanks for the hint.
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Hey guys, I got
aquestions about nutrition. I recently started counting calories, and consistently coming in under my maintenance 2600kcal/day. That's not including the calories I expend lifting. I tend to average about 1800-2000 per day of clean calories, no junk food, no sugary drinks, etc. I eat smaller meals throughout the day, and don't feel hungry, yet I find myself yawning and almost dozing off in the middle of the day. I've dropped about 9lb over the last 3 weeks. At the same time, my lifts are getting stronger (though I began with low numbers, my squat is only 175... up from 125 3 weeks ago.. every day was an upper body day.. and even that was done half-assed before). I feel stronger, and am, but I am concerned. I've read about supplementing with olive oil for extra cals, any other alternatives anyone can suggest? Ideally, I'd like to eat enough to build muscle, while slowly dropping the fat. I understand bulking vs. cutting, but I've become convinced after some research that one can build muscle without gaining fat. Basically maintaining cut abs 12 months of the year (not that I have abs or intend to eat salad all year round).What do you guys find works as a diet when building muscle? Do you always end up with some extra fat? I take whey sometimes once, sometimes twice per day to get some extra protein. Will probably do twice/day when I get some spare cash to buy a large container.
Thanks guys, and may the gainz be with you.
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Does anyone else mix carton liquid egg whites with vegetable juice? I do this sometimes. It's just easier than making veggies (stove top broccoli which I do a lot of) and cooking egg whites when you can just drink it. 2 cups juice and 1 cup whites. You obviously get your calories ~300calories, plus your protein ~30grams, plus your carbs ~30grams. Of course I think the only downside may be that consuming too many liquids isn't "as good for you" as eating these foods whole.
I usually drink raw eggs with yolk, with milk and a large banana. Good breakfast at ~500 kcal.
I started counting calories the other day. Then the weekend came and I read the nutrition profile on a can of beer. I didn't count calories anymore...
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Let's see Brandi pull this off..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jM6kUQXxdAI&feature=youtu.be
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You're clear about that. But you're also delusional to think anyone is going to hand that to you on a silver platter.
Employers don't give a rat's behind what your expenses are. Your salary is based on how easy it is to replace you. And as a new grad with ZERO experience and lots of competition, you are easily replaceable.
You tried to compare yourself earlier to PK Subban, but right now you are more like a mid-round draft pick. You'll likely get a job, but there's no guarantee it's the one you covet.
Still, this has been a highly entertaining thread and I thank you for that.
Double you tee eff. He's more like a fat kid who gets picked last in gym class.
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The real problem is societie's view on newly graduated students, that is sad how you are treating this situation. This is the reason why employers dont want to pay premium to grads, it is because of the envy and putdowns of the general public.
It is unreal to me that you have the audacity to bring me down and say I need to work in the service industry when I am aiming for a mid management role right out of school, which only the best and the brightest can pull off.
My reasons are simple, my cost of living is high, my rent is high, I have a huge student loan, I want to live in Yaletown and have a nice car. All these things cost money, ok? I am sure you understand that, and because the life style I aim for is expensive I need a salary that justifies such a life style.
And a 30-40k salary is not going to cut it, how am I not clear about that?
Great! You should lead with that!
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I truly feel I deserve a chance at a job of my choosing, I deserve that chance because:
- I have a certified degree in a profession that is the focus of my studies
- I have a degree from a reputable university
- I have a respectable 2.8 GPA graduation average
- I have recomendation letters from my professor and my uncle who will vouch for me
- I have a team first attitude, I love to work with groups and designate tasks
- I am ambitious and am able to take on responsibilities that come with higher compensation
- I am friendly, very good with people, social and communicative
Just based on these elements above i would say 98% of people in our society dont have these atributes, but I do. And because I have them is why I ask for a higher salary than the average Joe coming out of school.
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Sounds right up your alley. They're all about being team players. And you're the best people, being part of the 2% of the best people in our society.
ROFL. Getting trolled has never been this hilarious.
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This is my whole point, employers are desperately looking for top talent, there is a lot of jobs available and few qualified people to fill them.
There is no one to pick like you say "someone else" there is no someone else like you may think. Sure I went to school with a lot of people but they too will get jobs, everyone is pretty much guaranteed a job out of school that is how the system works, you pay your dues, you go to school to get a job. This is how it always was, always will be and will continue to be marketed to us as such.
There are a lot more jobs than people available if you are driven and dedicated, I dont care if my classmates have the same degrees, they are not as ambitious as I am . They will go for entry level jobs while I am aiming for middle-management, that shows someone who has guts, someone who isnt afraid of a challenge.
I think an employer will be impressed I am aiming high and give me a shot at a management position, youll see.
You don't qualify. Thanks for playing. Now go flip that burger, I didn't ask for well-done.
And go back to school you borderline-illiterate chump. "There is a lot of jobs"... where does this guy get off thinking he's anything close to being a talent, much less being the top?
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Overwhelmed Planet?
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Hurricane Patricia
http://www.cnn.com/videos/weather/2015/10/23/hurricane-patricia-mexico-newsroom-weather.cnn
http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/hurricane-patricia-now-a-category-5-heading-for-mexico/vp-BBmlBnB
http://www.nbcnews.com/news/weather/hurricane-patricia-strongest-storm-ever-measured-hit-mexico-n449731
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/capital-weather-gang/wp/2015/10/22/extremely-dangerous-category-4-hurricane-patricia-to-slam-west-coast-of-mexico-friday/
http://www.bbc.com/news/world-latin-america-34614864
http://abcnews.go.com/International/wireStory/tropical-storm-patricia-prompts-hurricane-warning-mexico-34641305
Indonesian Forest Fires
https://news.yahoo.com/indonesia-forest-fires-could-become-worst-record-nasa-054227357.html
http://www.latimes.com/world/asia/la-fg-great-haze-explainer-20151021-htmlstory.html
http://time.com/4065829/indonesia-haze-forest-fires/
http://www.cnn.com/2015/09/17/asia/indonesian-haze-southeast-asia-pollution/
http://www.foxnews.com/world/2015/09/24/thickening-haze-from-indonesia-forest-fires-dampens-muslim-chinese-festivities/
http://www.cbsnews.com/news/smog-cloud-shuts-schools-in-malaysia-spreads-to-thailand-and-indonesia/