I'm a 21 year old junior, soon to be senior after this semester dating the girl of my dreams who loves me just as much as I love her. We both go to school in Omaha right now, have dated for 3 years, and have already talked about marriage, kids, family, all that crap like most loveydovey couples do. She is graduating this year and she landed her dream job, here in Omaha, and already accepted it and plans on living in Omaha it appears for the future, at least the immediate future at least. I'm incredibly happy for her and excited for her/our next chapter in life.
With that said, I confess that I am scared about what the future holds for me. I was born in BC, but my family moved to California when I was little was raised in SoCal for almost my entire life, until I went off to college in Omaha. I'm scared because while Omaha is a nice city with friendly people and all, I'm not sure I want to live in Omaha and start a family here. She is a Midwest girl, born in Eastern Colorado and then of course came to Omaha for college. She has already told me that she wished to stay in the midwest, which it looks like she's getting that wish with her new job.
Like I said, I'm incredibly happy for her, but can't help but feel scared that this is almost a sign that I am eventually going to have to settle in the Midwest. I wouldn't even think of leaving her, because she is everything a guy could ask for and so much more. I don't know what I did to deserve her, but I am grateful. I have no intention of leaving her whatsoever and if she is still in Omaha by the time I graduate next year, then so will I. But part of me has a gut sinking feeling that I will never be 100% completely happy living in Omaha. My family, my close friends....all left behind and a far distance away. It makes me scared, thus my confession.