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I am pro choice(wouldnt get one personally unless for medical reasons) but I am beyond sick and tired of abortions being the only womens reproductive health issue anyone cares about. Its like the supports for women who are mostly irresponsible are more important then those struggling with infertality or who have dealt with (often multiple) stillbirth/ pregnancy losses. I am also beyond fed up with the pro life movement, you know if they put even half the energy into preventing loss as they do on trying to tell women how they should live...maybe just maybe more research will be done, maybe more babies will be saved. Also can they not shove their disgusting signs in my face. Its rather uncallled for. Bc is providing a publically funded aportion pill which I am against(unless for medical reasons) because why should we pay for other peoples irresponsibilities.. But mostly cause fertality drugs and treatments are NOT publically funded Let that sink in for a moment . You can take a pill that will kill a baby for free but have to pay for medication to get pregnant. This is backwards and so twisted. Heaven forbid you speak up against this because this means your stripping women of their rights. Nevermind if you are pro choice. Nevermind if you want all Womens reproductive rights to matter and not just the right to kill your baby.

Thank you so much. We are very excited.

Thank you so much

Yes!!! Ts and I are officially engaged We got each other rings for Christmas and decided to make mine a Engagement ring. We get married August 2019(We need to save up ).

Thank you so much.

A picture I took right after opening one of my Christmas presents from TS. I got my hair done On Dec 20th and I feel very pretty [ and maybe a bit under dressed ) Happy New Year everyone.

Thank you. It has been a difficult journey for both Ts and we appreciate the support. Getting my tattoo was actually a very healing process and I feel a large sense of peace having our sons footprints with me always. He will always be a part of our family and this just another way to honor and remember him. Thank you. It has been a difficult 2 years TS and I appreciate the support.

I had a blast at the live event at Rogers Arena. My only complaint was that they did not have any women sizes for T shirts....and the Ambrose shirt sold out in the men's smaller sizes. They also did not have any of the female wrestles shirts, which I expected them to have at least a Charlotte shirt, as she was one of the big names at the event. So that kind of bummed me out. The crowd was pretty rowdy in our section we were in 108 iit was a lot of fun and reminded me of going to a white caps game. I wish Canucks games were that rowdy. I really hope we get a actual Raw/Smackdown or even A PPV I would so go again.

So I got a Memorial Tattoo last Thursday for the baby boy TS and I lost October 29th 2015 at 24 weeks and 1 day gestation(I was basically 6 months pregnant when he was stillborn). The footprints are his actual footprints and the angel wings are the same style wings on his molly bear (a special hand made teddy bear made to be the exact weight our son was). I just thought I would be nice to share it with all you.

More of a question then just a confession. So we have a very good friend whose dog died last month and she is flat out acting like her child died, and its getting to the point where we are both super annoyed with her. I get that people love their pets and that one passing away is very sad. I would be very upset if something happened to one of our cats. However it is NOT the same thing as losing a child and our friend is being beyond insensitive its to the point I think we may have to talk to her about it. I just not sure how to do it so we are being sensitive to her grief but make her realize they way she is comparing her loss to ours is not cool. Does anyone have any suggestions?? Here is a little background about what Ts and I have to endure. Last weekend we had a party for my upcoming birthday, everything was great until the end of the party when one of my other friends joined us for cheesecake and a netflicks movie. This friend had never been to our house and really wanted to see our babies Memorial items (especially since she helped us get our sons Molly Bear). So we were looking at the bear and talking about it when our other friend totally took over the conversation and started talking about her dog. It was to the point where it was upsetting both Ts and I. He actually got up and left the room because of how insensitive she was being. She not only was interrupted both my friend and I talking about Ts and I's son to talk about her dog, but then started comparing the memorial items we have for our baby to ones she's has for her dog. She then started going on about her dumb bird that died like a billion years ago and how she wished i had met the bird cause I would loved it. I don't give a crap about her dead birds. To stop the talk I suggested we watch a zombie film. I wanted to watch Silent hill, and my friend wanted to watch Dawn of The Dead because she said Silent Hill was to scary. Don't get me wrong Dawn of the Dead is a very good zombie film. Yet, it is very triggering to me, I made it very clear I didn't want to watch it, I even mentioned the whole Zombie baby thing. I said we were watching Silent hill but then my friend said if watched that she was going home. Maybe I should have said then go, but I am too nice, and I said fine. I then mentioned again How I was uncomfortable watching Dawn of the Dead since you know the whole Stillborn zombie baby thingy...and I had a stillbirth. I even said that it made me uncomfortable because the baby turns into a zombie (I mentioned the zombie baby at least three times), This wasn't a good enough excuse not to watch the movie, my friend insisted we watch it. It got to the point when my other friend to try to please both parties suggested we just FF those scenes. So we watched the movie I didn't want to watch and of course even though we FF those scenes we still ended up seeing part of them. After the movie my friends said they were going to go home, and I was like Finally but instead of us just parting ways right away my friend just started going off about her dog again for like 20 mins. Then when they finally got up to leave I gave my other friend a big hug, and the one friend who dog died demanded I give her a hug, and was being all weird. I don't know what her issue is but I swear if she mentions her dog to me one more time I am going to scream. Lastly I have also noticed everytime I share anything about our son bear or anything at all about him on FB, this particular friend then instantly shares something about her dog. It feels like she's trying to compete with us over who lost the most. Its like seriously you cant' seriously think a dog dying is worse then a baby dying then having to give birth to that baby, then almost dying yourself because you have blood clots and then you know having a miscarriage a year later. Its so beyond frustrating. So yeah how do I talk to this person about her not you know comparing her dog to my baby without upsetting her or should i just continue to grin and bear it??

Ts got us tickets. I am super excited to be going since I never been to live WWE event before. Does anyone know how much I should budget for merch?

Just watched this weeks smackdown, at the end of Namoi and Charlotte's match Natty, Carmela and the Tamina girl attacked Charlotte. Since those women could be considered heels and its obvious Becky is against the way they are treating Charlotte. Do you think its possible they are turning her Face???

When do tickets for the June 24 show at Rogers arena go on sale? I want to go.

First I do not. second you try living with what I have to in the past 2 years

. I am trying to talk to her about the situation but she doesn't see how she's excluding me from things cause she does stuff with me just the two of us and I am like yeah but the big things with the whole group I am being excluded from. I am really at a breaking point.

I am beyond frustrated and annoyed with my best friend she is really starting to piss me off. She needs to really STOP excluding me from stuff and when I bring it up and tell her I feel left out she has the audacity to tell me that I am over reacting. She is basically pushing me out of my friend group and clinging to my boyfriend. AND does she really need to make plans with him during my 'fertile window' we are trying to get pregnant kind hard to do when he's not at home. She hasn't been supportive at all and furthermore going on and on about some chick ending your friendship right after I had a miscarriage is so uncalled for Its like really I don't care about your petty stupid problems, AND i hate how she always cuts me off to tell me she knows how I feel when she can't possibly know how I feel. She does this ALL the time which brings me to this final point A BIRD is not the same as a baby stop comparing your dumb stupid bird to the death of my son. You do NOT know how it feels, you will never know how it feels so just stop.

As someone who suffers anxiety and who had also had postpartum depression I can offer some tips to help with getting your anxiety under control. If possibe getting some form of counseling really does help especially if your anxiety is bad enough you need medication. Lets face it though not everyone qualifies for long term counseling. I am struggling with this myself due to situal anxiety brought on by a miscarriage in december. I can give you two tricks that really help me calm down without using my medication. Journal writing : sometimes all you need is to get it all out and keeping a journal or diary can help if you arent able to see a counselor at the moment. I often write to our son about twice a month. It helps me feel connected to him as well as allowing me a outlet for my grief. This has been especially true since my second loss. It doesnt even have to be any actual writing sometimes ill write song lyrics that remind me of my angel babies or a poem or story ormore often then not I will color them a picture and then tell them about the picture(write why I thought of them etc). This leads me to the most helpful and relaxing stress reliever and the way I keep my anxiety under control. I color. It may seem weird or childish or like a fad but the adult coloring thing really works. Its so calming that unless i am in a extreamly stressful situation I dont even need to take a atavan. I highly highly recommend you go to a book store or even just amazon and order a book and some pencil crayons. They have so many choices to suit everyones personalities. I am even going to be ordering TS a cat swearing book in feburary. If you want some advice on authors or brand of art supplies I can help with that. Anyways I hope that was helpful and really do encourage you to look into one or all three of these things.

As someone who suffers anxiety and who had also had postpartum depression I can offer some tips to help with getting your anxiety under control. If possibe getting some form of counseling really does help especially if your anxiety is bad enough you need medication. Lets face it though not everyone qualifies for long term counseling. I am struggling with this myself due to situal anxiety brought on by a miscarriage in december. And so then you have to get paid counseling and that can be finicially limiting. So I can give you two tricks that really help me calm down without using my medication. Journal writing : sometimes all you need is to get it all out and keeping a journal or diary can help if you arent able to see a counselor at the moment. I often write to our son about twice a month. It helps me feel connected to him as well as allowing me a outlet for my grief. This has been especially true since my second loss. It doesnt even have to be any actual writing sometimes ill write song lyrics that remind me of my angel babiew or a poem or more often then not I will color them a picture and then tell them (write why I thought of them etc). This leads me to the most helpful and relaxing stress reliever and the way I keep my anxiety under control. I color. It may seem weird or childish or like a fad but the adult coloring thing really works. Its so calming that unless i am in a extreamly stressful situation I dont even need to take a atavan. I highly highly recommend you go to a book store or even just amazon and order a book a some pencil crayons. They have so many choices to suit everyones personalities. I am even going to be ordering TS a cat swearing book in feburary. If you want some advice on authors or brand of art supplies I can help with that.

We bought a wii U for the new mario games and although I love mario we barely play with it. Mind you I am not a very big gamer and TS has a PS4 so that mostly is the gaming system that gets used. I love my 3DS but its kind of on its last days and I do eventually plan on getting a new one. I like the concept of this gaming system but I just don't know we can justify getting it especially when we have a WIIU we barely touch. If they did bring Blue and Red back I would hope they make it for the 3ds as well since I would buy it in a heart beat. I loved that game it was so much fun.

Thank you. I am hanging around even if I don't post alot.

So unless they are going to make this the actual handheld device they release new pokemon games for I would rather just buy a new 3ds.

Thank you. They are actually super cozy I can't remember where I got them from.

Due to Medical reasons I am on leave from work till January 5 where we will be doing gradual re- entry (so like 1 day a week then 2 days a week then so on) my employer didn't realize she had to register for a ROE when she first hired me and so is now in the process of doing so. My medical issue came on very sudden and sadly unexpected and so I had just started this new job like three weeks before having to go on Medical Leave. We are having such a hard time getting the information she needs so she can file my ROE electronically and It can potentially delay my claim. I actually have enough hours with my previous job to go on Medical EI but EI won't let me just use those hours because its against policy or some crap like that. I am beyond frustrated because now I may not get my claim processed until the middle of January and we are kind of poor and its just adding extra stress that neither one of us need. To make matters worse I only work part time with this particular employer. So I kind of need to be able to switch to normal EI when I am cleared to return to work full time. I had another job that I was due to start on December 12 but because of this medical issue I was fired from that job before it even started. I basically was fired because I wasn't allowed to lift and carry their heavy double stroller down a flight of stairs and had asked them if they could just do it for me in the morning but that was deemed to much to ask and so I was let go. I do know that they turned out to be the kind of people I wouldn't want to work for anyways (especially since we are trying for a baby) but it still was beyond annoying. I turned down another job that would have been more money but less hours to take this particular job because I felt that I had a connection with their children and it ended up screwing me over. I am in the process of talking to EI to see if they can do anything for me but I highly doubt it.